Thursday, March 14, 2013

End of my term

   I have about three weeks left serving in the SRC.  Elections are coming up; I have been watching the two teams going through the same motions and emotions that Jon and I went through.  Watching them meet with their campaign teams, seeing the sparkle of excitement and anxiety flash in their eyes.  I recall those feelings very acutely.  I recall feeling the soft nudges from the Spirit that things were going to turn out alright.
        I have started to look back on my experience in the SRC; we aren't quite done yet, but our term is just about over.  People have been approaching me and asking "are you relieved that you are almost done?"  I frankly respond "no actually, I'm not.  I feel that I have just started to get this whole vice-president-ing thing down, and now we are about to give up the title."
       This assignment has pushed me tremendously.  It has demanded skills and talents from me that I simply do not possess.  The only time that I can recall begging for heavenly help this much was during my tenure in the MTC.  As is always the case, under such pressures I have grow enormously, have shed some bad habits and have gained some better ones.
      In the end, I think that the single greatest thing I have gained from these last two semesters has been my testimony of relying on heavenly help.  I see more clearly now than ever before that I cannot do sufficiently what life requires by myself.  The simple truth is that I need Him.  I need every particle of help and support that He will send me.  I plead for help, for assistance in facing these challenges that will stagger me if I do it alone.  The feelings in my heart are "I must receive His help, and will do anything to get it".
        I can anticipate looking back on these experiences with fondness and gratitude.  There have been deep canyons and deep rivers carved into my heart and soul. It is somewhat alarming to realize how greatly this has changed my life, and how much it will continue to change it.  It has changed the course of it forever.  I'm still reeling at that realization.
       I suppose that from here, the only way to go is onward and upward.  I am so grateful for the privilege it has been for me to serve the student body.